How are you so positive all of the time?
This is something I get asked a lot!
To be honest, I don’t really know the answer. But then I think about where I am right now, who I’m with, what I’m trying to achieve. And I sit back and think, what is there not to be positive about?
Yes, I am being made redundant and my last day officially is just over two weeks away.
Yes, we’re currently in lockdown and I can’t do much of what I used to do before.
Yes, I’m embarking on a career choice which is a little alien to me.
But you know what, at least I get to experience these things! I get to learn and grow from each and everyone of them.
I get to spend this time communicating and sharing my experience and my knowledge with a whole host of new people over the internet.
I get to spend time with my sister and my niece that I wouldn’t have done before.
I get to try something out and hopefully succeed, or learn from failing.
Ultimately, I get the choice.
And I choose to chase joy.
Last night on our walk, as we turned onto the home street my niece started grumbling about how tired she was and that she hated walking and that she was going to die.
I asked her what her favourite thing was on the walk: “getting home.”
So I asked her again: “nothing.”
I must admit, the walk had gone on later than I anticipated and it was starting to get dark but I listed off some of the things that we did that I enjoyed:
- We saw horses in the field
- We walked along the river
- We climbed over stones in the priory and played ‘spies’ to hide from other people who were there which culminated in jumping out of the building as the bomb was about to explode
- We carried on playing ‘spies’ to stay hidden from the guard (my sister)
- We played Pokemon
- We played the word association game
I wasn’t always this way, but something advising people nearing the end of their life and convinced they know their killer will make you sit up and realise what is important in life.
And thats taking for granted the fact that we could walk using our own bodies, we could breathe and move our bodies.
I’m grateful everyday I get to live this life, that’s why I’m happy most of the time.